the girl who was brainwashed (by the world), tried too hard (to live up to it), broke (-shatter, shatter-, and is being slowly healed (by His hand).

all in his time (:


in:faith, self-denial, growth
out: self-gratification, idolatry


what i would like:
days/months/years/etc. to immerse myself in the Lord (this i would love)
a life application, or study bible that is NASB (: (and has space for me to write all over it) <3
spurgeon's, tozer's, ravenhill's and paul washer's books. (:
edward's sermons (:
to go to cambridge, harvard, vanderbilt's or princeton (:
more God, more God. <3 :D

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Sunday, March 8, 2009 { 7:14 AM }
Jesus, Beautiful Saviour.

Since the first time I heard it, it's been stuck in my head.

Well actually no, i heard it at retreat.. but it only got -pretty much- permenantly stuck since the moment i watched the youtube vid.. hmmm.. when was that?
2 weeks before i led chapel with shannon and the sec 2s.. i think it was in January! :O
whoa. hmmm.. i think we led on Feb 1st.. so 2 weeks before would be... 17th.
that's about 2 - (17/31) months ^^ HAHAH math.
just had math.

and the first time i watched it, i was so filled by His Spirit i can't believe it.
I think it was one of the first times i could have a near-tear experience at home. out of camp, and out of church. whoa. praise Him man.
i really look up to henry seeley actually, i think his writing is really good, must be his Godsent gift?


i'll tell you more about how the song moved me some other time, because me thinks the time has not yet come. but for now:

you know what i really don't understand, what i find really hard to grasp
i dont get how studying hard, topping the class and getting into somewhere like cambridge/harvard would be to His glory.
other than the fact that people would probably find you more credible when speaking of the Gospel, and see your testimony, that God can be in studies as well but
1. isn't that conforming to the ideals of this world?
- by achieving material "prosperity" and "success" (and fame and recognition by the world) wouldn't that make you more vulnerable to it? aren't you supposed to hate the world and not be of it?
- the world denies Christ, and pursues material "success" and hence by conforming to the ideals, aren't you agreeing with what the world is doing?
- we are made new and not of the world, our old sinful selves are destroyed and we are not to live like the world or in the world but it is only our temporary 'house' - i say house because our home is to be heaven - so why are we conforming to the ideals?
2. if we live for God shouldn't we be focused on Him?
- in the process of education, we are forced to be able to regurgitate answers that glorify humans, that put humans above other humans and sometimes above and neglecting God, they say there is power in words, so in this brainwashing process, aren't we made more vulnerable and aren't we not being focused on His Word?
- what the world teaches highly contradicts what the Bible teaches, wouldn't that make a Christian more vulnerable to swaying and losing track?

Now i think about it... perhaps it's a test. A test of how much we can hold on to Him without being affected with what we are forced to do.
But you see, topping the class and going to an ivy is not something forced, albeit pressured, so where does that fit in?