Monday, August 31, 2009
{ 3:58 AM }
Majesty, Majesty, Your grace has found me just as i am, empty handed but alive in Your Hands.
i had a really good dream yesterday.
but it wasn't a good thing to dream about.
but that's not the thing on my mind right now. meaning that i've pretty much gotten over it?
okay good.
1. Why is it the good (here meaning interesting) workshops in ym camp are for "17 & above"?
is it right to justify a larger number of years around the sun as a higher level of spiritual maturity?
stuff like postmodernism is more than something only jc students/uni can comprehend.
2. maybe i'm not meant to go this year? i don't know. dad wants to go to italy during the same period. (://)
and i don't think i should anyway.
if i do:
- i'd have too many camps already. kinda like last year x.x
- i'd have a chance of using the camp as a "high" charger, and that's not good.
- i'd be able to go with jam (:
on to something of more importance
what is a career in which one can focus entirely on Christ, yet can appease parents who wish for their child to "do well"?
paradoxical statement, is it not?
For a fellow JAMer (: :
(and everyone else who is reading! (: )as of late, i discover so many 'Christians' i do know, who... aren't truly saved.
what does it mean to be truly saved?
personally, i believe it's something that can only be done by the Spirit of the Lord.
when the person is baptized by the Holy Spirit, he is truly saved.
it's not just a prayer that goes "yes, i'd like to ask Jesus into my life"
if the person has never read the gospel, and has never really breathed that word of God that lasts forever, and has never been invaded by the Spirit and filled with it, he/she is not saved.
sad sad truth.
yet the question is, how do we determine that?
if the person has not, after apparent filling with His Spirit, had his life turned upside down and priorities and desires uprooted and transformed into that of Christ, he has not been saved.
"So I want you to know that no one speaking by the Spirit of God will curse Jesus, and no one can say Jesus is Lord, except by the Holy Spirit." - 1 Cor 12:3
in those times, saying Jesus is Lord, if i'm correct, meant death. only a fool would say that.
a fool filled with His Holy Spirit, sanctified, and living solely for Him.
a complete fool.
this fool chases not after the desires of the world, and lives not in the moment of that world, but in every moment given to him by the Lord. he chases only after the love so amazing and so divine that only the Lord can give.
he also chases after one-ness with the Godhead.
he knows that he is only to build a vessel that will carry him towards his goal, that which is the Lord.
“So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.” - Matthew 20:16
he chases not after being first on this earth, he chases not after status or fame (amongst his companions and in his society) but humbles himself to the point which he knows that nothing on this earth is his; he is but a tenant, renting that which is the Lord's.
he knows his body is not his and must be returned to the Lord without unrightful mutilation and intended defect, to be used in ways that speak of the Lord. he knows his possessions and all he is blessed with are not his and his rightful inheritance is only the Lord, henceforth he is not to grip onto them with all his might and strength, but onto the Lord.
he knows that all he experiences now only makes his vessel a stronger boat, sturdier and more effective and looks on towards His Lord, union with Him.
if the things of this earth will wither, then it is far better to focus on the word of the Lord which will last forever, is it not?
the fool can only do this by The Spirit, and not by any other power in existence that is not of God.
so please tell me, are you truly living for God?
are you studying for God?
studying to glorify His Name?
question yourself, be true to your Lord - if He is of any importance.
what are you studying for?
what are you living for?
does your time spent focusing on Christ diminish in comparison to that which you live to do/are working at?
is there such thing as to study amd devote yourself to that to glorify His Name?
if you focus on His Kingdom, does He not promise to add on everything else unto you?
henceforth why do you rely on your own energy and focus on "studying to glorify His Name"/"working hard to glorify Him" instead of focusing more living for Him and delighting in His ways?
be right with Him, let all things else diminish in comparison to Him, and He will grant you that which you desired before you surrendered it to Him. check that relationship between you and Him, are you rightly connected?
what is that one rock standing in the way of the living stream of water of you and your connection to the source of Christ, preventing you from continuing your path?
this is but a lesson i am implementing now, though not for studies, for that had not been the thing that i hold dearest.
when i finally realize my empty-handed-ness, and nothing-ness, i know that in Your Hands, i am alive completely and with overflowing, abundant joy.
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also, kudos to seth, who was the only one who noticed the "est electricum!" and asked (:
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